Showing posts with label Sadness. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Sadness. Show all posts

Sunday, July 5, 2009

To tolerate is to give away vitality (with a 3POV)

RELOCATIONIST'S REPORT

Now Playing: (believe it or not) Black or White - Michael Jackson (serious lame pun with the blog layout)
Mood: rushy o_o

As we all know...the late Michael Jackson has passed on, and this is such a late tribute to his death. He may have led a paradoxical life (when he was a kid he performed like an adult, and as an adult he wanted to live as a child, when young he looked like a typical African American, when older he looked Caucasian) but we'll still remember him as the King of Pop and the moonwalk creator. (I do like how Li Ann puts it too - "weird awesome man")

GAH!!! I suck at making things sound beautiful. I just got totally pwned when I saw this in deviantArt:

Full Image Here

I mean, that just made him look good and angelic again (and hot :o) credits to mlcamaro for that awesome artwork. AND I don't care if you think all of this is overrated about his death and bla bla bla. My blog, my game, my rules.

So now that I made that statement, I'd also like to post a 3POV (3rd person point of view) on the mystery of MJ's death. I personally think that his doc might of gave MJ a wrong dosage which led to his death. Possibly there may be something else to why the doc had suddenly disappear just like that. That's all I got :D

Other than that...I've been on vacation, will post photos when I get them (in Facebook only) I also got highlights...bwahahahaha I have to play ninja so that the serious teachers don't notice. I also haven't camwhored for a while now.

I also wonder if people read long ramblings without pics >.>

Wednesday, July 30, 2008

all hail the emo queen

RELOCATIONIST'S REPORT

Now Playing: Some song I came up with, playing in my head
Mood: emo

Yea...of coz I'm still in contact with my friends, but it's all so...different. It's over a month. I still have 4Sc3's scream for my name...during really random moments....crack jokes, weirdness....even funny arguments....as they say every second counts...it's so true, I'm using someone else's laptop right now, just so that I can express sorrow again.

Monday, July 21, 2008

Last Minutes in Heaven

RELOCATIONIST'S REPORT

Now Playing: nothing
Mood: guilt....yet urging to draw

Ugh....I nearly cried in public yesterday. This time it's got nothing to do with SG, it's because...my mom forced me to eat P-O-R-K!! OUTRAGEOUS! FOR A SEMI VEG LIKE ME TO BE FORCED TO EAT PORK JUST TO CALM MY MOM'S ANGER WTF!!!! I even drank chicken soup, ate silverfish, had duck gravy (even if those kind of stuff are minor coz I'm just a semi) BUT STILL OMFG why do some parents accept being vegetarianism but not mine? Even if my mom knows how foie gras are made (putting a tube into the duck's mouth and forcing it to eat..like a lot) but yet she says it's part of the circle of life.

Fact: We were once the hunted. We were prolly herbivores back then I guess. Coz our intestines are herbivore-ish. Plus, meat clogs our arteries, but thank God for our stronger digestive system these days that doesn't make us suffer from indigestion, which somehow excludes old ppl (no offense). Quoted from somewhere "Blest this world for it's fruit without having to spill blood." or something among those lines, why can't we people move to just....stop global warming and solve the food crisis?! Circle of life...circle of lifeless carcasses being served at our dinner table that is.

sigh, enough rants. But anyways, today in school we had Racial Harmony Day. I wore the sotong outfit aka baju kurung to school today, sang the choir. Then I skipped RDA today. I won't want an expensive silk clothing to get dirty =_= But then inspiration struck yesterday, and I started designing new characters for a prolly 2 hr long motion picture, but again I still have to wait and get my job, before I can move on being producer for what I'm dreaming of...again. Now there's two stories stuck in my head - Academy 1957 and Last Minutes in Heaven (both are working titles) I'll draw the new characters when I have the time, when I'm done I'll submit to dA. And DON'T STEAL MY ART!!!

Enough complains for today.
EDIT: I'M GONNA DEAL WITH EATING MEAT AGAIN!!!!! WHY IS THE WORLD SO CRUEL?????!!!!!!!!!! (it's won ton noodles btw T_T)
EDIT EDIT: It's vegetarian curry rice! Complete with tofu, potato and spinach! XD

Tuesday, July 8, 2008

ΞמTotal TT_TTnessמΞ

RELOCATIONIST'S REPORT

Now Playing: That's What You Get - Paramore
Mood: Nostalgic, sad

After looking at the vid in Olivia's blog, I became nostalgic, and went to YouTube to search for Sri Garden videos

OMG I'm in the vid! Hint: @ 1:06, Red t-shirt
ps: @ 2:36 Note the lan si Yellow House flagbearer XD


I'm ALSO in this vid, and again, Red shirt @ 0:29 AND 0:41. Note that I had long hair that time. Man I'm getting perasan XD


To reduce my perasan-ness, I uploaded a vid of Mel Tan during her prom nite performance (I wasn't in the event btw) THIS ONE'S FOR YOU MEL!! KYA!

Thursday, June 26, 2008

юReporting for Duty...NOTю

FALSE RELOCATIONIST'S REPORT XD


Now Playing: Everything You Want - Three Doors Down
Mood: Nostalgia, sad, losing connection.

Hahahaha I'm still in Malaysia. Tomorrow gonna go already...damn sad lar...But right now I'm gonna talk about my chronology in Sri Garden the past 2 years...Be prepared as I would be really open minded at this, and it'll be really, really, really long.

2006
I was placed in Form 2D, in which I spotted a few familiar names, like Benjamin Lim, Melissa Chan. (acutally din realise till she came and talked to me >D) Both from my same primary school. Y'kno, I tried to give a first impression that I was confident and all, but I fail miserably, anyways...the peeps:

Cassandra & co. (Olivia, Melissa, Tang Mun Yee):-

The first pplz I have ever met when in Sri Garden, actually Cassandra was the one who first said 'hi' to me =). But actually I had a first impression of them...as a bunch of *ahem*female dogs*ahem* but actually, Cass is quite nice that time, tho may become freaky as she is really enthusiastic about newbies in school XD, I can tell. That time, I wasn't close to her co. as well, then they had their downfall as being close friends during the middle of the year.

Hasnaa:-
the other girl whom talked to me in class, because I wanted to join Cheerleading. Nice girl, doesn't really had the impression of cheerleader at first, until she said she was in, maybe because of movies influence which said cheerleaders are bit*hy XD (but heck, I joined cheer and yet wanted to retain a good reputation and for the sake of Cempaka's nostalgia)

Carrina and Ben:-
Carrina had a really open mouth, haha, still cool to me, and Benjamin...childhood friend, so I can't remember what first impression I had on him. And I still don't get how the hell he can do stunts like that! Getting up from the floor wihout hands, break falling, SOMERSAULTING (wait, I actually can do it that time, just wif trampoline, same case with that guy) his amazing flexibility O_o

Chitra:-
When she told me to clip my hair, or was it tuck my shirt? I thought she was a pair of goody two shoes. But actually, she' not really a pair of goody two shoes XD, but still it's a good thing, being rebellious rox. And she was close to Hasnaa and I that time, and when I say close, I mean REALLY close. Les partner XD

Michelle (Lee Xin Yi, so it doesn't get mistaken):-
She was also another one who told me to either tuck in my shirt or clip my hair. But then not as often as Chit. Well, she's hot, as in, not literally panas, but HOT. I remember she wore slim jeans to Carrina's party and me and Cass were like omg - she's always hot (Does NOT make me a les ok? =__=) And she also liked to pinch my cheeks AND Cass', so we pretty much got annoyed wif that. But she's still nice.

Raja:-
I didn't know he was my preschool classmate until 2008. And my first impressions on this guy as a kid was "Is he a guy or a girl? Boy is a girl?". But then again my first impression on 2006...I didn't have when I saw him XD. You can share opinions and seek advice from this guy =D.

Cheerleaders:-
What I can remember my first impression of cheer, was that the coach was also enthusiastic about newbies -_- and that the cheerleaders actually had a...cheeleader's aura O_O yes Nadira, that includes you too XD. That time was fun, but only until the boys came in it was funnier XD, but it's to digress...just scroll down

Nadira:-
She actually had a REALLY strong cheerleader's aura dat time...I sensed it XD. In the end, she became one of my best frens along with Hasnaa, being our group leader XD PUT YOUR HANDS UP FOR DETROIT, I LUV THIS CITY!!!!!

Li Ann:-
Why is she special? Because she was one of the Chinese there XD, she's also an artist, dat's y her name is here. Check out her deviantart account!

Lara:-
Why her name is here as well? CARTWHEELS! XD

Calvin and co.:-
Can't really remember my first impression on them tho, but then one of my thoughts of Calvin was "Was he in my kindergarden? No seriously, why does he look a lil familiar" But in the end, I mistaken him for that someone else.

Yan Yee, Tracy, Yong Enn:-
Knew them during adv. chinese class, but in the end I quit anyways, these guys hav a really loud mouth, but still, you can share your thoughts with them =D

Sue Lyn n Su Ming:-
Both are my kindy mates =) Don't really got to know Sue Lyn much, but I can forever remember what guilt I did to Su Ming during volleyball. Alas, it was repaid this year by the shuttlecock XD, I'll also remember how sotong Su Ming is XD

Japanese Animation Club:-
This is the part where I got to know Liyana (has a deviantart account as well), Joanne, Jia Jin (deviantartist too) and Qasyaff =3 Some peeps thought our club was gay, but WHO CARES!! BWAHAHAHA *cough*

Alex Lum:-
Then there was he. My Cempaka school mate since Form 1 only. haha quite a rebel and all, but I recall him doing something nice when I had a fear of heights when we were Form 1(there's nothing special going on, c'mon man) Lol, I remember how the girls were surrounding him when he first came to this school XD

Chong Kin:-
This guy, if not mistaken, was in Sri Garden before. He changed school, then came back. He actually had an impression of a nerd, and a bit teddy bear like. But then, mr I'm not a man didn't like him and idk y. So I didn't get to know him much.

Cheerleader boys:-
HAHAHA the best part of 2006, after the final years are over, the guys Austin, Nazri, Hanim, Azri, I forgotten a few names then came into cheer, not forgetting a few other cheerleader girls which formed "Queens" they were the ones whom actually made cheerleading more fun. Making funnies, doing weird dances, trying out new stunts, so many to name!


2007
After getting a lot of bad comments on how the G's and A's were, I got afraid to go to Form 3A actually XD but at least I had Cassandra's company. At first I had a feeling that they're all nerdy, but then...A familiar face from cheerleading, who I meant was Jiy Ni and a few others, before that I thought they were at least 1 year older than me, I was HORRIBLY WRONG X_x

Jeff:-
Why this guy first? Because he was the person whom Cassandra liked to tease even from the first day of school. That guy actually likes anime, and I also enjoyed bullying him. Quite nice a friend too y'kno. (Idk y, but they liked to pair me up wif that guy =__=)

Joshep:-
First impression - Athlete. I was right, he's a b-baller. He's currently studying in Australia coz he got a scholarship there.

Malcolm:-
Nice outgoing guy, he was the one who actually intro Soon Yang 2 me. And I just hate it when you have to snatch the basketball away from me =__= I kid I kid...

Nikki:-
Was close to Nadira, then that time we became close friends at the near end of the year, cute cute dei~ ^^v XD

Kist:-
always has nice topics to talk about, has royal blood too.


Soon Yang:-
This was the guy who had a crush on me, but later freaked out after realising I was a tomboy XD. He freaked me out last year by saying random "hi's" and "bye's". Now he's got a girlfriend already, and I'm happy for that guy =]

Saranya:-
Started hanging out with Hasnaa this year. But eventually became close friends for 2007. Despite a bad reputation, she's actually quite nice, also complimented Cass' body shape >3

Alex Lee:-
Dudes, I can remember my first impression on him like it was so yesterday. LONGER STORY TIME:
Cass kept on talking bad abt this girl whom she hates, saying she's hitting on the new guy of the school, in which the new guy was actually someone she knew when she was younger. I didn't really care that time, because I never saw who this new guy was. One day I only went to ask her to show me who he is. He was in 3N, same class with Hasnaa, just dat and everything. When we looked through the window at the door, I just saw this one guy who hasn't bought the uniform yet, in all white. Then he turned his head, unveiling his facial features, almost as if struck by magic, I looked away while smiling, with the words "Drop dead, gorgeous" in my head, my hand on my heart. One of the days, Cass actually did went up to that guy and said hi, and y'kno what? my head screamed "DON! YOU'LL FREAK THAT GUY OUT!" And also, it was because of him I think if not mistaken I recall having him and Peter, and another guy...forgotten who, came to d table me and Cass were sitting and chatted once....and then nvr chat again until...2008.

NEW Cheerleaders:-
Ahh, newbies. Most of them being Form 1 and all, REALLY LIGHT! Especially Shi Hui XD (not so close wif them nowadays)And also in 2007 this was the year I got really ambitious about having a guys cheerleading team, and I still don't know why I want a guys team so badly o.o

King and I musical:-
This is where I got to meet Sofia Nazira, Mimi, another Sofia, and another girl I forgotten her name as well SORRY REALLY SORRY. Being the dancers of the whole production, this "Small House of Uncle Thomas" story, haha became the entertaining part of the drama. With WHITE make-up like a bunch of Baby Bat Goths. Fun days.

Red House Girls:-
I especially remember Poh Yee (because currently there's something going on with her and Alex LEE), one of the girls whom preferred talking to me during sports house meetings. Not only that, there's also Angela, Shi Hui, a couple others from Cheerleading as well. I enjoyed playing games with them XD even if my netball skills suck (i dun even like it the first place)Basketball especially was fun to play with them around.

Billy & Hua Min:-
Ah yes, the influence of Metal, and got me into likeing gothic stuff was because of Mr. Billy Boey. Near the end of the year, I actually liked talking to Billy and Hua Min exchanging ideas of music and all, and really amazed by how many bands he could name O_o (how does he remember all the names? Some sound the same O.O idk) And Hua Min's a nice girl too, and at the same time, don't judge a book by it's cover...


2008
At first got completly lost on the first day of school. Didn't know where exactly to go and all. Brought all the books to school for nuts =__= and had a broken back. I was first placed in 4Sc2. From then on, I met a few ppls.

Ali:-
First guy I talked to in the class. New kid, at first gave a government school nerd impression, also a shy one. I was wrong. This guys is the currently funny man of the current 4Sc2 (alongside Zhao). He also can draw, play guitar, piano, and drums but he said he isn't interested in making music.

Jung and Jun:-
Jun was the shy one, even if he was new last year only. Jung was more open that time, chatting wif Malcolm and me. (If not mistaken I think I gave them an impression that I was fierce XD) Raja says Jung's got a sexy butt, but I dun see anything special tho XD btw, Jung LOVES to bully Mel XD

Veemelia:-
Finally revealed her name lol, but I'm sure some of you can't pronounce it right lmao. That time she was sitting with a bunch of girls, but then for some reason I saw that she was a lil different than the girls, idk y but it's there. But when I heard her speech, I then thought she was a normal girl IT'S THE HEADBAND AND THE SLANG!! JUST THOSE TWO FACTORS GAVE ME THAT IMPRESSION AND I WAS HORRIBLY WRONG. Before that, I was a loner, then only I started to hang with her more often when I learnt that she WAS ACTUALLY a tomboy. V2 you ROCK! Keep da fire burning! (that was seriously unoriginal heh)

And then I got transferred into 4Sc3 after we got streamed. At first, I was thinking, oh man! I'm not close to anyone in this class, I'm gonna die this year. And then again, WRONG! beeeep

Yeong Wei and Lee Zen:-
o_O these two were gay partners. First Yeong Wei said hi to me then intro-ed Zen. First impression of Zen - above average. Yala yala, I'm gonna be nice, bla bla bla wtf. Funny hysterical guy, and even from the start he looked like a gang leader, dunno why. I'm sure everyone sensed that vibe too rite? So gang leader must be TANGGUNGJAWAB. And then Yeong Wei, STILL ANNOYING AS EVER, but changed to a better person.

Kah Jone:-
The guy who sits behind me. Always see him laughing his butts off. One of those whom likes to bully me and VERY hard, I mean VERY hard to counter his comments, even physically, yes his size is big so that's to his advantage =__= But, he did something nice to me during the last day of my school, taking a GREAT risk of calling Alex while in class.

Ben, Kar Keat, Alan:-
These guy also arr...omg. But still nice to talk to. The first impression on Keat, was also a government school nerd XD, Alan seemed like a foreigner, yes, he was studying in New York. My impression on Ben, actually I didn't have XP I still remember the first comment Ben had on me "Kah Weng and Amanda" YEA RITE! Jack, go hentam this guy plz.

Fong Bee, Su Vyen:-
And again, Happy Birthday Su Vyen! and Bee Fong XD, she's Mr Khoo's teacher's pet, am I rite? And then Su Vyen, sports woman, but then I still beat her in arm wrestling XD. Su Vyen and I also hanged out when hosting Japanese students. And Fong Bee is wise cracking too.

Terk Chin:-
He was from the same primary school as me, but bak then, interclass activities almost never happen. One class = one family, that's a government school for ya. Dunno much abt this guy. Wise cracker as well.

Jian Rick:-
Also from Chung Hwa and I didn't know till this year. He told me abt Dai Tan, which was my grandaunt's friend, who so happens to be his mom. O_O small world. Seems close to Kar Keat, still dunno much abt him, hope to know more.

Tae Wan:-
the other Korean in my class that doesn't sleep. Dunno much abt him, hope to know him better.

Mel aka MONA LISA:-
Remember the Cass and co? That's history, Mel is just Mel, hanging with different ppls. Neutral as she would say. Quite nice a dancer. *whispers* Guys in my class like to bully her and it makes a laughable scene *end whisper* nothing~ 8D. My mom also said she was pretty and thought that the guys in my Sweet 16 party were going gugu over her XD. Just a parent's impression. Stay cool Mel.

Liv Tan(Olivia):-
You see? I gave you a nickname of an actress so be happy XD (Liv Tyler). Art classmate along with Alex n a few others for that matter. *whisper* makes a comical scene when bullied XD *end whisper* What was that? A bird was chirping. Yea...8D also a nice girl.

Jen Sern:-
The other guy who also hosted a Japanese student whom I hanged out wif. VERY TALL, and smart. He recently moved to Canada to study there. All the best to him.

Jacklyn:-
Was a 3G student, and a Queens Cheerleader. Dat time didn't talk to her much. But later knew that she was cool too. =3

William:-
Bully partner against Alan XD. Nadira used to like to call him her husband, or sth to do wif that XD. Nice guy.
ps: Wei lian ah ma ye jian ya! XD (figure this one out yourself, guys)

Gan:-
This guy was close to Lawrence. Most of the time, he'll be like "Amanda, come here, let's chat." XD Sometimes got interesting things to talk abt, yea.

Farris:-
At first, thought he was Chinese. Aww c'mon I'm sure everyone thought that too rite? Yea, met him only when I was about to do the speech thing wif Yeong Wei abt global warming. Heh, quite nice guy. Has that teddy bear impression too y'kno.

Childhood Dreamers gang (Jordan, Wei Lip, Peter, Afiq...):-
"Boys will be boys" - First thought in my head X"D These guys exchenge witty banter among themselves and it really makes a funny scene. I still dunno why my mom thinks Jordan and Alex look alike. Afiq, I recall meeting him last year but never got close to him, and the part about me getting a penis transplant is soo not true. NADIIIIIII~!!!!! rawr. Wei Lip, nice to talk to, and the first person, I think, to know my dirty lil secret. Didn't really got close with Azim tho, the songwriter of their band. Hope to know him more.


If I miss out on anyone, TELL ME! =D
ps: I won't be online for two weeks
as I'll be staying in someone else's house for two weeks before going into my new home.
LAST EDITED: 11 July 2008

Sunday, June 22, 2008

♣Prelude 10 - The Final Days Are Over♣

Now Playing: One Bad Apple - Osmond Brothers
Mood: Tired, content

Woo! Came back from Genting. And here's the story of what happened on Friday (Last day of school for me) I brought a few of my stuff for the party like Twister, tap shoes, i-pod amp in the shape of a dog, my "ancient" wizards hat, and the camera. All of them (except for the cam and hat) were rendered useless. Not exactly as I expected to be, hecticity about the location, but was still fun and worth it. Before class started....
I asked Mel to be a teenage witch XD


During Moral class, I didn't do any work XD

I had to headbang to the song "Keep Your Hands Off My Girl" (Correct me if I'm wrong Ben, that is if you can remember) XD

This is the part where my classmates cam-whored (GET YOUR PRONOUNCIATION RIGHT KAR KEAT XD) It's Jin Ben coughapekcough

And as they say "Every leng zai has to have their yong sui side." Point proven, haha. Lee Zen the emo lala nerd XD

Aww, Tae Wan's camera shy lol

Ben and I

SWITCH STEREOTYPE! I became lala and Zen became a rocker XD

It took me a few shots to perfect the pic, but alas, I fail, but still ok. Mel and I

She also didn't bother about the work XD

Then Ben tries to act like a girl.

The following story has nothing to do with what's happening on Friday, what REALLY happened was that every1 were on candid or camwhoring

These two guys...

...became gays...

...Then they became possesed by ghosts (le gasp!)...

...And then the ninja known as Axel aka Yeong Wei plans his attack...

...on GAN...

...Ben didn't wanna get involved and continues doing his work...

...He approaches his target...

...Lawrence spectates the happening...

...What is Gan's fate? To be continued...


I've also got a vid during Moral class XD


@ 0:16 - I was gonna say "Don't go all gugu over me." XD
@ 0:33 - Who's Arvin? XD (That was a rheotorical question. I know who he is)

Then there was Physics class, have to study aso, dey have it in Singapore. after that, there's English class, and...

I took a photo of the teacher, and I caught her subliminal message, "Tell your Singaporean friends about who I am so I can be famous" XD jk

Kah Jone looks like an elf with that hat, haha

Nikolas, he looks like he's saying wtf?

Kah Weng and Jacklyn. Jack! Your bf is to your right! Listening to lyrics like "To the left to the left" lately? XD

"I dun wanna be a witch!" haha Su Vyen

Kar Keat looks like a wizard lecturer in this one, maybe for wizard Chemistry? XD

the "cool wizard" you may find in Hogwards XD

Then BREAK TIME!! This was the time I was actually desperately looking for Alex, Wei Lip said he wasn't here, then Nazri made it factual - he was absent. Then there was BM class, Kah Jone and I took a major risk by calling him while the movie Bukit Kepong was playing, unfortunately he didn't pick up, and the teacher actually suspected we were using the handphone. Only after BM class, before EST he picked up. He then told me he was coming after the school hours. Then there was our final class, CHEMISTRY (deja vu? or is it me?)

Took a pic wif the REAL chemistry teacher


Then sayonara time for a few girls
and here they are. Mel, Jack, Aiza, and Sach! =3 (with a few picture destroyers)


then the party starts! With loads of them at BAM -_-. Alan actually came, BUT HOWEVER CONVERSLY...he wasn't allowed in, WHY? KENAPA? even if he has his student card and his parent card, the guard didn't allow him in, the guys also nearly started a fight there at the guard house. Party destroyer =___= f...But here's more pics of the not so crowded party:

Afiq

Playing Chinese chess

Spontaneous

This reminds me of the vid that Ben recorded XD

Vee, Afiq, and I. NOT MY FAULT THIS TIME VEE, I'M IN THE PIC U CAN'T ACCUSE ME!! XD What am I doing btw???

Warh, this gangster arr...

No comment...


Then another party destroyer Ms Vasinthi shows up. I got everyone into trouble, especially Afiq, since he was a prefect. Had to find an excuse, luckily I'm not the one who has to open my mouth as I'm known to speak my mind. As in tell the REAL truth. No faking whatsoever when it comes to teacher idk, it's just me. We then moved to BAM Villa to order pizza.

Managed to catch a spontaeneous pic of Vivi XD



Another vid: I take back what I said about the party being sucky. I was just damn bored that time. and SORRY to the others who weren't in the party but in the vid I also dunno what I was doing there.


Then this is the part where the whole gang split up, most of them went to the badminton court, then me Afiq and V went to the canteen, before that Wei Lip says Alex is coming around 2 pm, and then I managed to meet up wif them at the court, then the pizza arrived and then we went to the canteen. So yea, seeing the clock said 2:30 pm, he still isn't here, I got depressed. Ate one slice of pepperoni pizza, then started to sulk badly, and at the same time I was thinking about the good memories of 4Sc3. I was at the verge of crying, then there was a moment of silence. They tried to cheer me up, crack up some jokes, allowed a few of them to do a farewell bash, most of them didn't want to as they feared it would hurt me more. Kah Jone hit lightly, Zen also did, then Kar Keat....lol he wanted to hit real hard bcoz I have been treating him like a punching bag XD. 2:45 pm, I gave up hope already, just my two objectives of what I wanted to do on the last day of school. I was thinking only one of the objectives could be done only while on the phone...the other involves something that the phone cannot do. I managed to just keep my tears against my eyes, and continued to be at the brink of despair. And then this conversation happened while I was *inserts word that has similar meaning to the word depressed*...


Ben: He's here!
Me: Who?
Keat: Hah who?
Crowd: *mumbles with questions of who is this he?*
Ben: Dun say...*mumbles*
Zen: It's NO ONE la, NONE OF YOUR BUISNESS ASO!
Me: (Nah, it can't be Alex *dread*)
Afiq: I think they meant Mr Khaw.
Me: Aww man! (shit, another party destroyer *gonna die very soon*) We better pack up.
Afiq: Wait, lidat we pretend like we're studying?
Vee: yea...good point
Me: *continues packing and then dies*

then the whole crowd walked in syncronized, like a marching band, later opens up to allow one person to walk in, and there he was...In an utterly unexplainable moment, my heart bursts into fire tears...that person who walked in was none other than...




hang on guys...


...


*runs to get tissue*


*blows nose*


*returns to type*


*breathes in*


*breathes out*


...


ok I'm done...


(fails at bringing suspense)




...Alex Lee...


I was actually happy, but I had to cry, and I still don't know why. The whole crowd was chattering on why I cried, I even shouted to them "YOU GUYS ROCK!!!" and I also overheard one of them saying he was late and all...but it wasn't his fault, the moment was really, just unexplainable, beyond words could describe. the whole gang then retreated to BAM just to leave some time for me to do what I wanted, I didn't wanna take pic of myself, my facial expression was a real mess, haha, he also said it was the first time he saw me crying like this, at least it shows my humanity, another important lesson learnt sometime ago. Right before leaving, I hugged everyone goodbye, then they escorted me into the van, left last words for me "Come visit us while you're still here." "Find a hot guy in Singapore and intro to me!" "We'll be missing you." "Remember us, k?" haha, there's a lot more I'm just lazy. I'll forever remember you guys. Not just a fading memory. A memory that sticks to your head till you die XD

PS: I'm coming this Tuesday after school, meet me at BAM Villa ok? Su Vyen I know you're damn happy now XD

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On the next post, (Considered an Out of Topic) I'll be talking about:

The Osmonds 50th Anniversary World tour, Genting so happens to be their last show so stay tuned for a review k? =) (Which also explains why I'm listening to their songs XD)


PPS: This has got to be one of the longest, time consuming posts I've ever done

Monday, June 16, 2008

±░Prelude 9 - Five Days And Counting░±

Now Playing: My Apocalypse - Escape The Fate
Mood: like an emo sotong =(

Five days before ciao from school...Got tap dance class today. I seriously regret for not having to do that much hanging outs with the 4Sc3 gangsters (Though I still feel like killing them for saying that yesterday was a date =_____= Kar Keat you big mouthed fool! lol I kid I kid) I suddenly feel like I want time to stop for me to...y'kno...oh how time flies...Oh how I wish I didn't actually fail my entrance test, oh how I wish for a more perfect ending with SG, oh how I wish my mom didn't even have this decision at the first place...but not all that one desires would come true, a test from God of endurance, T_T haiz...a picture perfect ending, you can forever dream. Well, as they say dreams can come true, but these dreams can't be achieved unless one conquers life's downs.

I'm also worried about my future. I know I have set what I want to be in the future. But then sometimes it gets me wondering, is that what I'm gonna do for the rest of my life? Or can I do multiple tasks? Animating, yet product designing, yet advertising...decisions decisions. Advice is most helpful to my crisis... (hallucinates ghostly whisper "Futureless"O_o)

EDIT: My mom is buying a keyboard to replace the old piano =D

Thursday, June 12, 2008

♂Prelude 8 - Atrabilious♂

Now Playing: Childhood Dreamers - Childhood Dreamers
Mood: melancholic, [which is actually the meaning of the title (Kar Keat I hope you remembered your English lesson XD)] and a certain part of this blog, I'm pissed.

Out of Topic: Before that, I actually double clicked the song Her Own Enemy(it means play all in my library), then after the song end, I tot February's Blue Sky is gonna play again, unexpectedly BOOM Children of Bodom's song "Are You Dead Yet" was bursting my com's amp O_O (because after Childhood Dreamers in my library is Children of Bodom)and I nearly died of a heart attack. Yeah, random =__= Back to the real thing.

Wei Lip came to give me the edited version of their demo. Sounds better, and for some reason, the fuzziness of the electric guitar is reduced. The wonders of technology...what's next? Flying cars?

Now the melancholic part. Today during art class, my teacher just mentioned that I'm leavng to the whole class. That just got me in a muse. there's so many things I'm leaving behind. Friends. ahem...you all know who. All would be left behind, though we may still contact, it'll never be the same again. I'll be completely estranged, so far away...But my heart would still remain intact, I don't know why or how bonds like these are formed. But it makes me sad to have lost a limb or two (or three or four). Sigh, at least there would be a farewell party next Friday, my frens are throwing it for me, I'm deeply grateful to them...always...

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Well,*straightens up* now that I expressed my emotional part, here's something factual for you guys to know. According to psychology, when a person has been pestering someone by giving TONS of compliments to another, it would freak the other out. Why? I don't know, but it's psychology for ya. There's also variants of these scenarios. Like continually "apologizing" for something that he knew that he enjoyed. Let me tell you more about this "he" fella.

Dubbed by the majority (or the whole of Form 4) as the chui sui wong = exaggerating lies king. Known to have commited adultery at the age of 11 WTF. Smokes. And ONE HELLA ANNOYING!! ONE GOOD EXAMPLE IS THE ABOVE SITUATION!!! This is no longer a silent grudge, my friend. Why am I this stupid to have it a silent grudge at the first place, if it was a grudge then things would've turned out better for all of us. This person is none other than *somone cuts in and says his name* yes you are absolutely correct random person. So mr. tomato head, fu*k off my life, and everyone else's, you'll make everyone happy if you weren't born in the first place.

And that's just it for today, I have dinner.